| this isnt really a post...just saw that someone called me an idiot on my last post that was from 2 moths ago and was wondering who had such lovely anonymous things to say.
thanks gorgeous
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| Tuesday is the new thursday
-drowning sorrows with beast-check
-wearing a really slutty shirt and no bra-check
-dressing jesse up in dan's clothes-check
-getting lost in the village-check
-having a group of irish men buy me and jill drinks-check
-having an half an hour art discussion with "the russian"-check
-waking up with my jacket on and lying on my own shoes-check
-going to class today-sorryyyyyy
my life hurts
-d | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
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| Indeed the historical whore is back and better than ever. I have truly out done myself in my stalker-esque abilities, but due to technology and drunken friends I met a boy. His name is reid and he's from my art history class. I spent an amazing weekend at his dorm, most of it sober ::gasp::. So we'll see how this goes, but it already feels different from the whole scott experience, perhaps because i feel i can actually talk to him..haha. They say good things come in threes, so far ive got a new job and relief from a draught, and im really looing forward to the third, it may in fact involve an amazing roadtrip and atown reunion! I'll update with any news, i miss and love you all sooo much!
Desiree "The Historical Whore" Rose
ps..soon to come, pics from strip king's :-O | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| its midterm time..and what does that mean?!...im taking every quiz/survey possible..woot
last kiss:reid
last cigarette: last weeken
last good cry: that time i called everyone i know
last library book checked out: i dont even know how to check librbary books out here
last movie seen in a theatre: finding neverland
last cuss word uttered: who knows..i have a truckdrivers mouth
last beverage drank: water
last food consumed: cliff bar
last phone calls: Jillian
last tv show watched: umm
last shoes worn: my mocs
last cd played: itunes please
last item bought: ficed coffee et cliff bar
last thing downloaded: music
last annoyance: swahili midterm
last disappointment: things are actually going pretty well
last soda drank: diet coke
last ice cream eaten: cookie dough
last time trippin on drugs?: if weed counts..last night
last time in love: zeroo
last time hugged: today :)
last shirt worn: aqua marine tee shirt
last time dancing: last night in only my underwear in jillian's room
1 MINUTE AGO: this survey
1 HOUR AGO: swahili take home midterm
1 DAY AGO: reid's :-)
1. What do you most like about your body?hair
2. And least? legs
3. How many fillings do you have? 1
4. Do you think you're good looking?thank you mascara
5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? i guess
FIRSTS
First job: horizon's hair salon
first screen name: iseered19
First funeral: friend's dad
First pet: carrot the fish and timmy the hamster
First piercing: ears
First Kiss: mike burakoff
First one that mattered: your first kiss should always matter
First Lust: richie duffy..lol
First love: riigghhtt
First enemy: lauren daddio
[What does your name mean?] longed for or desired (duhh)
[Birthday?] july 26, 1986
[Zodiac Sign?]leo
[What are your plansfor tonight?] sleepover perhaps ;-)
[What time is it?] 4:15
Have you ever...
[Taken a picture of yourself with a milk mustache and sent it to the milk people?] do ppl actually do that?
[Said "I love you" and not meant it?] hahahah..clearly
[Gotten into a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish/etc?] clearly
[Been to New York?] NYU babbyyy
[California?]zero
[Hawaii?] zero
[Mexico?] zero
[Philippines?] zero
[Had a dream about something really crazy?]nightly
[Stalked someone?] ahahahahahahahahahahahaha..who havent i stalked?
[Had a mud bath?]ooo that sounds like fun
[Wished you were the opposite gender?] that or gay
[Had an imaginary friend?] i had an imaginary cat..sooo normal
Pick one
[Apples or Bananas?] apples
[Wal-Mart or Target?] tarjhaaay (it's like a shugz name...)
[Spring or fall?] spring
[Do you have a boy/girlfriend?]zero
[Santa or Rudolph?] Grinch!
Which of your friends...
[Has the most distinct laugh?] ikky
[Will grow up and be a model?] we're all far too short
[Is going to have the most kids?] whomever plans a-z fail for :-P
[Have you known the longest?] ana and patty
[Knows you the best?] all my friends are my confidantes
[Is the loudest?] me and ik?
[Is the quietest?] yani?
[Do you miss the most?] all of them like whao
Just Wondering...
[What are you going to do after you finish this survey?] prob take another
[What was the last meal you ate?] johnny rockets chili fries..sweet meal
[Are you bored?] yupp
[How many of your buddies are online?] many
Which was the...
[Last movie you saw?] how to lose a guy in 10 days
[Last noise you heard?] myself typing/jennalise's music
[Last time you were out of state:] last time i was home
[MY OBSESSION:] mascara
[MY FAVORITE THING TO DO:] booze..sleep..hehehe
[I'M WEARING:] jeans and a teeshirt
[I'M EATING:] nothing
[LISTENING TO:] jennalise's music
[I'M FEELING:] bored/tired
[I'M THINKING:] i should really take a nap
[I SEE:] the computer screen
I think of ___ when I hear...
[Kill?] bill
[Red?] head
[Dance?] tap
[Fire?] Billy Joel
Faves:
[food?] all breakfast foods
[drink?] anything alcoholic
[color?] green
[album?] like picking a favorite child
[shoes?] mocs
[site?] facebook. i am obsessed
[song?] at the moment..hallelujah..ray charles
[vegetable?] carrots
[fruit?] nectarines
[berry?] straw
Last Person you...
[touched?] reid
[talked to?] jennalise
[hugged] reid
[instant messaged?] hayl
[kissed?] reid | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Today marks the one year anniversary of my acceptance to NYU.
It could also mark my failure from said University.
oh science why are you the bane of my existence?
one more final, 260 more words
I want to go home.
But first its time to party it up with Ra in NYC! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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| So here's what i could gather about my life last night. Some of it i remember, like the parts before i was drunk..but most of it was collected from multiple sources
-Power Hour Begins, with the mixed cd and everything..holla
-4 beers into the hour ashley calls us, tells us shes having a dance party in her room with the tisch kids, everyone runs out of my room in and joins in the festivities. I run back to my room for a minute to finish my beer and when i come back everyone is half naked. Me and Dan then proceed to grab the bottle of tequila and take turns taking big swigs from it. Everyone is making out with everyone, absolute insanity.
-the tisch kids are going to avalon so we start to go back to finish the power hour, when dan announces that he wants to go with them, so me dan ands remy run to our seperate rooms to get changed.
-walk to avalon, smoking cigarettes, singing, the usual.
-i stand in line, show the guy my fake id (the only id i have), and he gives it back to me without giving me a 21 bracelet, i give him a quizzical look, sway a little, and he tells me to step of line. He then announces that i am too drunk to go into the club and tha i should go get a coffee and come back in half an hour. I look over my shoulder and see dan in the same situation.
-Fail to find a coffee shop, so we head into McDonalds. (this is the point where things start to get very fuzzy)
-Dan goes to find the bathroom and when i look over my shoulder a few minutes later i see him standing outside of the door to the bathroom, see him lean over, and proceed to vomit all over the floor....oyyy
-I dont really know what happened at this point, I figure that we exited as quickly as possible, however, the next thing that i remember is being all alone on a street corner, and then in my bed.
-According to hayl , who i saw i had called at some point last night and figured could tell me something, I called her and told her i was lost and that i needed to go back to arlington immediatly. Hayl has no idea whats going on, doesnt know why im alone, where i am, or why i want to go home. She tells me to call remy and have him come get me, which i evidently did, and call her back. Meanwhile shes freaking, thinking that i might actually try to get on the fung wah, which u have to admit wouldve been pretty hilarious. So i call remy and he comes to my rescue, quiet quicly since im literall 3 blocks away from the dorm.
-remy brings me back to weinstein and sends me to my room, where ppl are evidently still drinking.
-This morning i was in perhaps one of the most confused states of my life.
-Dan has no idea how we got seperated, although he was home much earlier than i was..hmmm, i will never know what happened to my life for approx an hour. Im sure my ancestors are smiling down upon me.
As Kurdi said "Des, you win at life"
That i do, Kurdi, that i do.
The eternally lost soul,
Desiree Patricia Rose | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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| Its finals time...and what does that mean?!..lots of obnoxious quizzes and surveys to procrastinate your life away!!yayyyyy
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| I cant sleep...its one of those night when you think about all the things you have to do in such a short time..aka 8 days or less..and u feel like if u just stayed awake u could get everything accomplished...except then ur sooo overwhelmed that u have to write an lj..super..thank you live journal. I just made post its for each of my classes with everything i have to do..DEEEETH. Screwed for my physics final..slash grade in general..fuck. International Politics..lets just be glad that im no longer majoring in that..oyy. Swahili...something oral that im not good at? (i have a disgusting mind) World cultures..perhaps the only thing that im not incredibly worried about..as its only 2 books and 2 essays. I wish i could just take my stupid tests tomorrow and get them out of the way...im clearly not going to study..who are we kidding? Please oh please Tycho and Shankar and the god's of Physics and International Politics..give me the C- that will get me credit for the classes and i promise i will never ever take another class in either of your fields! Pinkie Swear! I have to go to my 9:30 lecture tomorrow...ive been a very bad girl this week...i must suck it up and load myself up with caffeine and face the day. 8 days, thats all i have to get through and hopefully by the end of it i will have done enough to not set my mother on some tyrade about not working up to my potential..what can i say..i dont test well!! stupid effing science requirement!!! Now ive gotten myself all worked up...i just want to go to sleep!!! Well i guess i might as well go and attempt to read all those politic's articles and stop my rantings..ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EFFFFFFING EFFERSON!!!!
hugs and kisses
the historical whore
ps..i need some serious drugs (aderol anyone?) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Handshake Drugs-Wilco | | Time: | 12:50 am | | Current Mood: | discontent |
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| Im dwelling again. Why do we have to dwell, honestly? Well thats actually a rediculous question and i shouldnt even ask it. History's all about dwelling on the past so that the same mistakes arent made. Thats actually hilarious when you think about it, who can honestly say they havent made the same mistake twice? So yea, why dwell if youre still gonna make the same mistakes? And clearly thats what movies like "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" are about, that no matter how bad things seemed, you woudlnt be the same person without those events, and that every moment is important in shaping you into the person you are. But what good does it do if the things i dwell on most are the ones that have formed an armor around my heart. Im sorry but, it fucking sucks!I dont like the person that my past has made me, i dont like how those memories make me feel. And im afraid to go home for a whole month, because thats where are those memories are, a little vault of my mistakes. where every landmark reminds me of a heartbreak.Even after going home for a weekend i can feel a huge weight on my shoulders as i stand in south station awaiting the bus, but i forget about that horrible weight just in time to be excited for my next visit home, where it is promptly awakened again. Im with all the people who make me the happiest, but at the same time there's always that lingering sadness. When i freaked out on columbus day, yea i guess it was all that shit in the back of my mind. And then i think it came out a little last weekend when i was talking to ik. I hate doing that, i freak people out, and i freak myself out when i realize how much i actually have on my mind at all times. As my dear friend Jesse the rock climbing hippie would say "im a happy guy" . I dont like being sad. I like to be happy, have fun, go on crazy spontaneous adventures, never be idle. Idleness is my mortal enemy. When youre least expecting it it will creep up on you and make you actually think. Haha, thinking, making good decisions, who does that? Id rather just use my brain only when it is completely necessary and only for things like schoolwork. Im an avid reader, always have been (pq and ana used to make fun of me when we were little for my bookwormish tendencies) and its probably because ive never liked to be idle and therefor dwell. But then theres days like this when i come back to my room, realize my total inability to do work and let myself dwell. This is monitored, sober dwelling, the only safe brand.
Oy
D | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Missy Elliot, Pass the Dutch | | Time: | 08:33 am | | Current Mood: | anxious |
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| here you go corey walk
Power houred it up last night, since evidently wednesday is the new thursday. Wednesday is also the, dont go to any classes, call in sick to work and go watch a taping of who wants to be a millionaire, soooooo sweeeet day. We had agreed not to start drinking till 10, but by 9 jill, remy, and i were back at weinstein with 3 boxes of the beast. We cracked the bitches open by 9:30 and the smell so totally reminded me of highschool and atown almost as much as making horrible mixes with gold crown, somerville's finest, would have. Im finally beginning to have "friend talks" here. You know the point where people arent tip toeing around so that they can make friends and can finally be themselves and just talk about their past lives and really really tell you who they are. It makes me so happy and so sad at the same time. I love the fact that i am becoming so close to these people, but i miss the people who i dont have to explain myself to, who already know all my stories and can pretty much guess my next move at any point. Although he has yet to admit it, dan is totally my gay boyfriend and pretty much one of my best friends here. After starving ourselves all day, we went to get pizza and had an amazing heart to heart which involved lots of hugging and a few tears (in the pizza place). There's something ive missed, hugs, desiree needs some lovin'. Jesse and i had the lovin' talk (aka sex discussion), the poor things been away from his gf for 3 months now and wont see her tillchristmas, although he assured me he'd make up for lost times.HIm and I are surprisingly two of the only non virgins on the floor, and of the non virgins probably the most experienced, its nice to have someone to have sex and the city-esque chats with again, even if it is a straight boy...wehwuh. we need to have some serious sex and the city watching times next week, im starving for girlie chats with my girls. i cant believe ill be seeeing you all so soon, i need to talk and help get somethings fixed in my life. A good ole yell at the farm would be nice too :-p
As always counting the days, hours, minutes and seconds
the historical whore | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Buffalo Soldier-BobMarley | | Time: | 02:17 pm | | Current Mood: | confused |
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| This has been a seriously fucked up weekend.
des
ps 9 days :-) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| hahah i just found this quote about my current residence and just couldnt resist!
"This is the town that never sleeps. That's why we don't live in Duluth. That plus I don't know where Duluth is. Lucky me."
-- 1993 movie, Manhattan Murder Mystery
Larry Lipton (Woody Allen
fo shizzy | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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| Well clearly im at work, and having been here for only 12 minutes,with a good 6hours and 18 minutes to go...i figured id fill out this survey compliments of jennalise
last kiss: mark the abercrombie model ;-)
last cigarette: saturday
last good cry: ummm columbus day?
last library book checked out: prob accordion crimes for school
last movie seen in a theatre: napoleon dynamite
last cuss word uttered: i swear too much to keep track
last beverage drank: green tea
last food consumed: chocolate chip muffin
last phone calls: i have lost alol contact with the outside world..prob my mom?
last tv show watched: conan
last shoes worn: does that count the shoes im wearning now?..then ruby uggs :-)
last cd played: cd players are so 20th century!
last item bought: an nyu tee shirt for my cousin
last thing downloaded: ummmm no diggity?..ahh ghettofabulous childhood
last annoyance: grrrrrr
last disappointment: mid term grades?
last soda drank: i the only one i drink i diet coke
last ice cream eaten:i havent had icecream in ages..but prob some variety of ben and jerry's
last time trippin on drugs?: looking forward to that first trip ;-)
last time in love: never
last time hugged: i could use a hug
last shirt worn: im presently wearing my "how do you like me now" tee shirt
last time dancing: staurday night babbbyyy
1 MINUTE AGO: pretending to be working
1 HOUR AGO: in swahili
1 DAY AGO: exactly?...i was here..gahh!
1. What do you most like about your body? my hair?
2. And least? my legs
3. How many fillings do you have? none
4. Do you think you're good looking? do you ever think theres more to life than being really really rediculously good looking?
5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? well me and kayth know that plain girls like us are gonna have to find partially blind husbands
FIRSTS
First job: babysitter
first screen name: iseered19
First funeral: ra's dad
First pet: timmy the hamster and orange the goldfish(real creative)
First piercing: ears
First Kiss: oyyy...stalker
First one that mattered: i think your first kiss should always matter..its a momentous occassion.
First Lust: richie duffy :sigh:
First love: none
First enemy: lauren daddio (still #1 on my hit list)
[What does your name mean?] longed for or desired
[Birthday?] july 26
[Zodiac Sign?] leo
[What are your plans for tonight?] sleep
[What time is it?] 1:00pm
Have you ever...
[Taken a picture of yourself with a milk mustache and sent it to the milk people?] zero
[Said "I love you" and not meant it?] haha..yes unfortunately
[Gotten into a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish/etc?] i have a scar from ms cleo..little bitch!
[Been to New York?] cha!
[California?]zero
[Hawaii?] zero
[Mexico?] zero
[Philippines?] zero
[Had a dream about something really crazy?] i think every dream i have is crazy..espescially when im drunk[Stalked someone?] ahahahahahahahahaahaha
[Had a mud bath?] oooo that sounds fun
[Wished you were the opposite gender?] once in a while
[Had an imaginary friend?] i had an imaginary cat
Pick one
[Apples or Bananas?] i like both
[hey[Wal-Mart or Target?] target..i miss target :_(
[Spring or fall?] spring..due to the fact that its closer to summer..but i love the leaves
[Do you have a boy/girlfriend?] nopeee
[Santa or Rudolph?] rudolph
Which of your friends...
[Has the most distinct laugh?] ik
[Will grow up and be a model?] there all gorgeous in my book
[Is going to have the most kids?] ra's gonna have major math genius babies!
[Have you known the longest?] ana and patricia
[Knows you the best?] all the ppl i consider my friends know most things about me
[Is the loudest?] the combo of me and ik
[Is the quietest?] quiet?..whats quiet?
[Do you miss the most?] i miss everyone sooooooooooooooooooooo much..two weeks!!!!!
Just Wondering...
[What are you going to do after you finish this survey?]working for another 6 hours :-(
[What was the last meal you ate?] some gross quiznos sub
[Are you bored?] to tears!
[How many of your buddies are online?] 76
Which was the...
[Last movie you saw?] half of american beauty.
[Last noise you heard?] ppl chatting in the other room
[Last time you were out of state:] im currently out of state if we're referring to my home
[MY OBSESSION:] im obsessed with everything
[MY FAVORITE THING TO DO:] hang with my atown lovers..dance..sleep
[I'M WEARING:] uggs,jeans, long sleeve shirt, teeshirt
[I'M EATING:] nothing..but im starvinggg
[LISTENING TO:] i wish i was allowed to listen to music at work
[I'M FEELING:] exhausted/bored
[I'M THINKING:] how long i have left
[I SEE:] the windowless hell that is my workplace
I think of ___ when I hear...
[Kill?] Bill?
[Red?] hair
[Dance?] tap
[Fire?] red?
Faves:
[food?] eggs
[drink?] green tea, diet coke, alcohol?
[color?] green
[album?] currently..wilco
[shoes?] my "pumps"
[site?] lj
[song?] annie waits, raspberry berry, the pina colada song, kiss the girl, handshake drugs
[vegetable?] i like all vegetables
[fruit?] each and every kind
[berry?] ummm strawberry?
Last Person you...
[touched?] i bumped into karrina
[talked to?] karrina..about a midget band..lol.
[hugged] hugged needed
[instant messaged?] hayl
[kissed?] abercrombie model :-) | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| My job has cracked me out, I can not write 1,500 words on command, 151 is crazy awesome, central park is amazing, abercrombie models have bodyguards, old men tap dance at clubs.
That my friends is what i learned this weekend.
To begin with, on thursday when i was finally done with the day, after hours in front of the good ole IT helpdesk, i trudged home, hand scanned my way into the stein, hopped on the elevator wand walked into my room. Except it was my room on a an acid trip. There was some kind of weird tapestry hanging from the ceiling, the lights were all off and the tv and stereo were blaring. I stood there in utter confusion for a few moments until i realized "Holy Shit! This isnt my room!!" My heart began to race, i spun around in several circles, frantically grabbed for the door knob and appeared in the light of the hallway gasping for breath as if i had just run the New York City Marathon. Some random boy was walking down the hall and grinned at me, whether i knew him or not is the most unclear as i was still panic stricken. I most likely was talking to myself in the hurried mumblings of the insane as i tried to figure out where the hell i was. I finally collected myself and had the sense to look at the door from which i had just emerged, 807, i had gotten off the elevator 2 stops to late...GOOD LORD! I found a flight of stairs and sprinted down two floors, jammed my key into the lock (thankfully the right one this time) and threw myself into my bed. Im such a spaz...im blaming it on the lack of sleep, although im sure others would blame it on my bad habits.
Friday was when the real trouble began. We were suppossed to go to a bar with one of our ra's who got fired :-( but he ended up ditching us, or was at work, its very unclear. So we all were chilling in jill and tricia's room trying to figure out what to do with ourselves. Well clearly the plan involved booze, but what kind and where would we go after? Some genius (certainly one of the boys) had the fantastic idea that we should try 151, so after much arguing on my behalf, i scooted over to warehouse, had to be assisted in finding the goddamn shit and zoomed back to the room. About 15 minutes later, my stomach is still burning, jaap is rolling on the floor and remy is rocking back and forth in a chair with a ridiculous grin on his face. Suddenly we're outside, walk through saint marks, keep going for lord knows how long until we end up at a hookah bar. There's something like a 5 drink minimum for the table so me and jill order a sex in the beach, and we get two strawberry daiquiri hookahs, poor decision on my behalf, as i shortly have to be assisted home by lauren and dan and after a pit stop at space market for the best bagels ive ever had, curl up in bed and am done.
saturday was a gloriously beautiful day. Woke up a little hung over, went to the bookstore to buy my 2 year old cousin any nyu tee shirt for her birthday, then head off with dan, jill, lauren, ashley, and sophia to central park. That day made me truly love the city. Honestly central park in the fall, right before all the leaves have fallen off the trees and it is still warm enough to lie on a blanket in the sun, is one of the most amazing places. We had a lovely picnin on an adorable hill in the middle of the park, rolled around and took foolish pictures, and dreamed of one day having pent houses on Madison or Park or 5th avenue overlooking c-park. the park was followed by alittle shopping clearly, and then a trip to rockefeller center where we grabbed some dean and deluca and watched the ice skaters fall on their asses :-) (schaudenfraude) And finally exhausted we headed back to the dorm, but the day was far from over. We all chilled for a while, trying to rehabilitate, and after much urging by me (yes i yelled at them and peer pressured everyone into drinking..dont judge me) we pregamed and headed off to avalon. Avalon is this wicked hooked up club thats actually an old church and it was one of the best nights ive had here. We were absolutely ridiculous, we pole danced, got up on the stage in the middle of one of the dance floors, and grinded like youve never seen against every person/object that came into contact with us. Oh yea...and i made out with an abercrombie model..goooooood lordd..even if he wasnt actually a model and that was in fact just a line...he was still incredible gorgeous! woooot. we finally left around 2am and all of us being incredibly famished searched fratnically for somewhere to eat, we finally settled on soup and burger, crammed our mouths with fried foods of every variety,looked at the hilarious pictures of ourselevs, and were of course raucous.
I really do love it here.
Sunday consisted of getting lost in NJ, hangning out with 2 year olds, and stressing out at the library till 2am and ending up with only 1426 words,,,weh wuh.
So soon till Thanksgiving, counting the days, minutes, and seconds :-)
hugs and kisses
desiree "the historical whore" rose | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Gotta Get Away-Offspring | | Time: | 12:50 am | | Current Mood: | confused |
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| My entire schedule each day is filled up, i barely have time to fit in ameal each day, but i still have sooo much free time. My job, which i got not only to contribute to the weight on my shoulders that is my tuition bill, but also to use up my free time, is perhaps my own personal hell. At least at panera i was almost always occupied and only had to dwell on things there that reminded me of past hardtimes. At this new job, where im suppossed to be an IT helpdesk person, but actually just sit at a computer for hours at a time, i space out for long periods of time and dwell on everything ever, and that certainly is not healthy for me. I feel at some points that i will burst out in tears, ive actually become teary eyed at points, and that would be pretty awesome since im one of 3 girls in the whole department. So yea, although i theoretically have no free time, my brain has all the time it needs to make me miserable. Im certainly not in the same condition i was in before i went home for columbus day, but it seems like that only after 2 weeks im regressing. I havent talked to anyone in soo long and i feel like a horrible friend, i have no idea whats going on with the lives of the people i care most about in the world. Just know guys that im constantly thinking of you, every moment im reminded of one of you and it kills me, im counting the days till thanksgiving, it sucks and i hate it. I love it here, its amazing, i have friends, but im still not content, theres still a void. im pretty sure i know what that void is, and im sure you all can guess..im pathetic. But honestly you guys, im sorry for being so distant, and i wish i could communicate with you all, i just cant. Im not trying to cut myself off, i dont know what im doing. So i write these occasional entries, which dont help and i dont know why i bother, maybe to reassure everyone that yes, the historical whore is still alive. Its one month till perhaps one of the happiest reunions of my life and i know ill feel as close to you all as i ever did. So yea, thats my prrof of life entry, just wanted to give a shout out to all my homies, i love you all, see you on turkey day weekend!
hugs and kisses
d
ps..i just threw up a little in my mouth thinking of the events of last t-day weekend, although since pretty much nothing worse could happen, im very optimistic...oyy veyyy, only happy pk breakfasts allowed, ok? | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| clearly jumping on the bandwagon again...
LAST PERSON WHO
-Slept in your bed: me
-Saw you cry: the real quesition is..who didnt see me cry columdas day weekend?
-Made you cry: life
-Spent the night with: dan :p
-You shared a drink with: who shares drinks?
-You went to the movies with: dan, jenna, and the glickman twins
-You went to the mall with: mum and relish
-Yelled at you: i usually do all the yelling
-Sent you an email: my international politics ra..
HAVE YOU EVER...
-Gotten in a fight with your pet: ms cleo and i have a scar to prove it
-Been to New York: cha!
-Florida: great grandma's domicile
-California: zero
-Hawaii: zero
-Mexico: zero
-China: zero
-Danced naked: what havent i dine naked?
-Wish you were the opposite sex: yea
-Had an imaginary friend: i had an imaginary cat...
JUST QUESTIONS:
-Things you like in a girl/guy: convsationalist, open mindedness, spontaneity, uniqueness
-Do you have a crush on someone: hehehe
-What book are you reading now: burying sm :(
-Worst feeling in the world: utter lonliness
-What is the first thing you think when you wake up: ughhh i hate mornings!
-Future daughter's name: -ive already used all my childrens' names up on my pets
-Future son's name: -
-Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: hugo!
-What's under your bed: several storage bins..and the boogie monster
-Favorite sport to watch: fh!
-Current Age: 18
-Siblings: relish, puppy, mari
-Location: NY,NY
-College plans: NYU 4L
-Piercings/tattoos: 3 ears/1 tattoo
-Boyfriend/Girlfriend: zero
EXTRA STUFF
-Do you do drugs: cha!
-Who are you're best friends?: they know who they are
-What are you most scared of: failure
-What clothes do you sleep in: sweats and a tank
-Where do you want to get married: who said i was getting married?
-Who do you really hate: haha they know who they are ; )
-What type automobile do you drive: zero driving
-Do you have a job: Stern IT Helpdesk?
-Do you like being around people: sometimes
-Are you for world peace: sure
-Are you a health freak: not really
-Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
-Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: clearly
-Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: dork/quasi-dork?
-Want someone you don't have right now: yes
-Are you lonely right now: yes
-Ever afraid you'll never get married: no
-Do you want to get married: not espescially
-Do you want kids: zero
FAVORITE
-Room in house:living room
-Type(s) of music: eclectic
-Color: green
-Perfume or cologne: escada
-Month: july
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
-Cried: no
-Bought something: yes
-Gotten sick: no
-Sang: i live in a musical
-Said "I Love You": zero
-Wanted to tell someone you loved them: zero
-Met someone new: sure
-Moved on: no
-Talked to someone: yea
-Missed someone: always
-Hugged someone: yes
-Kissed someone: no
-Fought with your parents: no | | comments: Leave a comment |
| so rather than study for my midterms or do anything else productive ive decided to follow elle's trend...
Name: Desiree Patricia Rose aka the Historical Whore
Sex: female
Age: 18
Birthday: 7/26/86
Siblings: Ariela, Jeremiah, Maria
Parents: Victoria and Brian
Pets: Guadalupe, Talulah,and Ms Cleo
Height: 5'7"
Hair Colour: red
Hair Colour of Choice: red 4L
Eye Colour: brown
Eye Colour of Choice: green
Writing Hand: right
Current Residence: NEW YORK FUCKING CITY!
BODY ILLS AND SKILLS
Nervous Habits: tapping
Do you bite your nails?:sometimes
Do you pick your nose?: nope
Are you double jointed?: fingers
Can you roll your tongue?: yes
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: hell yea
Can you blow smoke rings?: no
Can you blow spit bubbles?: clearly
Can you flare your nostrils?: yes
Can you cross your eyes?: zero
Tattoos?: one..next one coming soon!
Piercings and where?: 3 in my ears
CLOTHES
What goes on first, bra or underwear?: bunderwear
Which shoe goes on first?: left
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: what havent i thrown at someone?
On the average, how much moneydo you carry in your purse/wallet?: uh like 10
What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: my rings and my fork
Would you rather be on time and look OK or 10 minutes late and look great?: it would take wayy more than 10 minutes darling
FOOD
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: twirl
Have you ever eaten Spam?: ewwww
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: chunky monkey
How many cereals in your cabinet?: i dont have a cabinet :(
What's your favorite beverage?: 99 bananas!
What's your favorite restaurant?: chipotle!
What utensils do you use to eat pizza?: zero utensils
Do you cook?:i should not be allowed near a kitchen
How often do you brush your teeth?:3 times a day
How often do you shower/bathe?: every day or every otherday
How long does your shower last?: 20-30
Hair drying method: depends on exactly how late im running
Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?: zero
Do you paint your nails?: once in a while
MANNERS
Do you swear?: like a truck driver
Do you ever spit?: zero
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE
Animal: gazelles
Food: peanut butter
Month: july
Day: saturday
Cartoon: family guy
Flower: tulips
Shoe Brand: puma
Subject in school: swahili
Color: green
Sport: field hockey!(oh how i miss you!)
TV show: sex and the city
Holiday: Halloween
Book: Memoirs of a Geisha
Vacationing Spot: zero vacations
Thing To Do In The Spring: drink
Summer: drink
Thing To Do In The Fall: drink
Thing To Do In The Winter: drink
Game: scrabble
IN AND AROUND
The CD Player: ipod bitched!
Person you talk most on the phone with: hayl
Ever taken a cab?: cha!..NYC!
Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?: its a reflex and we all do it dammit(me too)
What color is your bedroom?: at home purple...here a lovely off white over cinder block(yay prison!)
Do you use an alarm clock?: the alarm on my cell
Name one thing you are obsessed with: mr obelsky
Have you ever skinny-dipped with the opposite sex?: no (altho that time at walden was insane!)
Ever sunbathed nude?: zero
Window seat or aisle?: windo
LA LA LAND
What's your sleeping position?: side
What kind of bed do you like?: firm
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: zero
Do you snore?:when im congested..which is often
Do you sleepwalk?: indeed
Do you talk in your sleep?: my roomate has told me many a time
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: hugo!
How about with the light on?: i like it as dark as possible
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: zero..i heart complete silence
WHICH IS BETTER
Coke or Pepsi?: pepsi
Oranges or apples?: apples
One pillow or two?: 5!
Deaf or blind?: deaf
Pools or hot tubs?: hot tubs
Blondes or brunettes?: brunettes
Tall or short?:tall
TV or radio?: depends
Beach or pool?: beach
Tic-Tacs or Certs?: tic tacs
Snooze button or jump out of bed?: jump!
Sunrise or Sunset?: sunset
Hamburger or Cheeseburger?: cheesburger
Morning or night?: night
Sports or news?: sports
Indoors or outdoors?: depends
Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?: day
Cake or ice cream?: ice cream
Bert or Ernie?: ernie
Spicy or Mild?: mild
Spearmint or Peppermint?: spear
Call or Write?: call
Peanut Butter or Jelly?: peanut butter!
Hamburger or Hot Dog?: veggie burger!
Dog or Cat?: cat!
Bath or shower?: shower
Book or Movie?: i hate when they butcher the book in movie form!
Green or Red apples?: green
Rain or Snow?: rain
Nike or Adidas?: adidas
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
Took a shower?: shower
Watched Bambi: i try to avoid things that make me sad
Cried?: a week
Talked on the phone?: yesterday
Read a book?: yesterday on the bus
Punched someone?: mwahahahahahah...kremsky thats right bitches!!
THE FUTURE
Where do you see yourself in ten years?: no one will know where i am
How many kids?: zero
Your profession: anthropolgist/archeologist indian jones style :P (clearly im being very realistic about my future)
Future School: leaving school foreevvveeerrr
Car of Your Dreams: who are we kidding?..im never gonna drive
I wanna live: until i can no longer take care of myself
Current Mood: stressed/excited about my sox! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Frank Sinatra-Cake | | Time: | 10:26 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/happy.gif) chipper |
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| im so proud of my darling 6A, last night we actually had a quasi succesful thirsty thursday, it being successful in that we didnt pass out at 10pm and had an absolutely fantastic adventure (well kinda an adventure). So per usual i hit up the wharehouse around 8 and grabbed the goods, had a chat with a mother of two about being id'd ("what a pain in the ass" lol) then headed over to the grocery store for the rest of the ingredients for mixed drink night. Got back to the stein with an incredibly conspicuos bag full of bottles and the festivities began. And now, since im just sooo lazy i shall relate the rest of the night in bullet form:
-pina coladas were a bit of a hard time since paz and remy dont understand the concept of proportions
-margaritas were a bit more of a success
-jesse (our ra) tells us to be good, leave if we get too loud, and of course to look after remy
-dance party in dan's room..which pretty much consisted of dan, jill,remy, ashley and me dancing around in a crowd of people arguing about sommeone being called a lesbian
-adventure time!
-hit up washington square park where we start a sing along; songs that included "aint no mountain high enough","shoop", and "i like big butts"
-have another ra encounter, this time it being joe walking through the park on his cell phone who encounters us in the middle of our beautiful rendition of "aint no mountain high enough" and is promptly serenaded, along with whomever he was chatting with.
-pit stop at the dorm where i proceed to absolutely hurdle the turnstile
-next stop johnny rockets..more singing...cheese fries..and a discussion with an obese child molester-esque guy named jerry about how our generation has made no significant contribution to the music industry (?)
-next comes by far the highlight of the night..of perhaps my life (besides the mk encounter) as were waiting in the q to go through the turnstile at the stein..some how.and i really have no idea..we start having a discussion with our security guard who then comes out from behind his desk and starts to dance for...officer rivera is perhaps the single greatest dancing security guard you will ever find..he absolutely put michel jackson to shame!..it was incredible...i just hope i am lucky enough to one dayget an encore presentation.
-the nightly viewing of mean girls
-jaunt out to the stoop to harass our favorite smoker, trisha, where jesse and i shared a pair of flip flops (?)
-wrapping up the night in trish and jillian's room with a sex discussion and then realizing i have a 9am class and booking my ass to bed
6A all the way!
Im getting happier kids..there is hope after all :-)
And tonight its me and dans dinner and a musical date!..im sooo excited..yay RENT!
hugs and kisses
the historical whore | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I dont know whats wrong with me and i wish i did. I freaked out last night, more than ive ever done probably. I usually dont have the emotional drunk break down, but all of a sudden all the sadness/anger that ive pretty much kept pent up in me while ive been away at school came flooding out and practically drowned me. The fact that i felt i needed to be completely alone confuses me. For a month ive felt more alone than i ever have and then when im finally with all the people i love most in the world, i freak out and run off, run away from people who love me and only want to help me.i dont know whats wrong and i wish i did. i need to talk to people. i need to tell some people about the parts of my life i kept from them so that entries like this arent so fucking confusing. I need a confrontation, and well lets be honest, it has to be sober, because my drunken rants never go well. i cant leave with all this shit inside me still, the only way im going to get better is to get some fucking closure. Im sorry thats all ive been talking about guys, i know how obnoxious that can be, so i just have to deal with it so its over, and i dont really know what im going to say and ill probably cry and i hate that, i hate letting it seem as if those 3 weeks were actually that momentous, but after it was over, thats when all this horribleness actually began to come out. i wish i didnt have to do everything and that i wasnt the only one who felt the need to say something, but i never say it when it should be said and instead hold it up until im ready to explode. like right now. so yea, ill probably chicken out and the vicous cycle will continue and ill become that psycho bitch who ive always hated and never wanted to become, but when you get no feedback, no response whatsoever, i guess thats what happens. Its weird, im probably the happiest miserable girl ever. I almost started to cry when we pulled into south station on thursday, i just missed the familiar sooo much, and while im not dreading going back to school (i love it there and everyday i feel more and more blessed for being accepted as a student in the hub of world cultures), i shall be counting the days till thanksgiving when hopefully i can show everyone a better show, with a happier desiree. I love you all more than words can describe, thank you for sending out a search convoy :-P
cheerio
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